she told me i was beautiful
on the
sidewalk, and she
cut her hair in
the bathroom. he happened
to glance and
catch my
purple stardust -
too bad the back
window was open
and my penlines drifted
out in a
cloud of nicotine.
we wrote on pads of lined
paper five
inches wide, and
believed with all our
guilt-smoked hearts
that one day
light would come
save us from the
things we didn't know. the
ice-cream wasn't sour,
so she dipped
her pearls in
my sympathy,
having a hard time
keeping it together.
i could tell the gallows
were mossing over
and our
chance would
be gone soon;
i pulled
them into the
streets -
i
a lullaby half-remembered by ShimmeringHeart, literature
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a lullaby half-remembered
your mushroom roots left lumps
of scar tissue on the glands that produce
sympathy. twining cells,
suffocating without eyes, water
that does not bear whispers too
afraid to be spoken.
i asked the moon what the crow
gave her, and whether it
helped with the shakes.
miss had no answer, but i threw
freshly shined pennies
into my black-deep well and
paused a wish. there was something
in the scent of my breath
visible in the crisp fall air
that reminded me of your collarbone bruises -
there was a new trail made
that night. miss told my dreams
what the crow gifted, but
my dreams never told me.
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and sentences don't end
when balloons pop and the glitter finds its way into our skin
and the perfect sugar roses lose their color,
the clock tick-tick-tock-tick-tick-
tocks under the skin coating my
scalp, like thick frosting on chocolate
(but they don't carry raspberry filling),
when laughing until your ribs ache doesn't
fill your shoulder-blades
or collar-bone, or molars, or metacarpals,
or tell you why the suede fabric
isn't real. and suddenly there
is no reason for a wish.
there is merely extinguished flame
and half-hearted clapping;
a life snuffed out and one
not even begun, and
still no one believes in aching window eyes.
in her spare time she wrote musicals,
ate peas in nutella, and had
a difficult time explaining her idea
of time travel. she knew exactly
how to do it though.
she thought her hair was gray,
but everyone said it was blond.
gray was more romantic, though.
in her mind, she was three years
old, tutu and pointed feet in front
of the mirror, being not
perfect enough.
she had problems with spelling,
math, and conversations, but
damn was she good in bed.
or at least, so i heard.
she told me once it was a distraction,
because she didn't have enough
money to go pearl-diving
for answers.
another time, she said dreams
smell like cinna
i think it was something
about your eyebrow/soul/funny little words,
but yesterday i walked to
the grassy area with the
misspelled manhole cover
that you pointed out
and wrote chicken scratches
in the ground and paper,
hoping the sun would
stop and i could think
correctly for once -
once.
i told you that i forgot
how to be real, how
to be solid and touchable,
but you wouldn't
believe that light-bulb
screams were that
painful.
so last week was
surprisingly real, without
giggling clavicle etches
and funny -
funny i forgot it.
leech letters seep from underneath fingerwebs and behind ugly,
ugly synapses.
stained ink manuscripts haunt
the back of your eyelids, paper-thin
membranes covering colors of muddied
puddle rainbows.
the print is soaking your marrow
in dreams.
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october thoughts, august words
i left my breath under the dirty ice floe
and waited for the resin sun
to melt the leaf tips,
setting free my conception of reality.
funny smelling ideas and fresh
scabs make for winter reborn,
hibernation.
imagined angels foretell ozone snow
and slowing synapses, a
numbed, barely functioning cardiac system.
marked toxic and child-friendly,
i poured rainbow insides on the
gray sidewalks that remind
people too much of themselves.
raindrops cleansed an upturned face,
troubled with guilt stained marrow
and gloss too long forgotten.
menthol-wrapped secrets tucked between
hair and woolen cap, i learned poetry
in the snow, on
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one plus one equals fifty two
brush your fingers over these spiderweb bruises and tell me.
tell me there are ladybirds between my teeth
and butterfly dust behind my ears.
trace skin-tight sillymarks, whispering
of violin seas, striped paperclips, and
fresh blueberry laughter.
oxygen plus hydrogen does not equal anything of importance
without lime green sock weight tracing the junctions.
scabby knees from who knows when,
they aren't going away. nothing
goes away here. the sun is
still today, spreading cloudtears
over maddening generic coverings.
piano sighs plus vintage curtains equals insomnia
and bruised retinas, reminiscent of grandfather.
memorize every
please, drown in lace with me, at least. at least.
tack my ill-fed tears on your cheeks and.
oh lord.
and.
i'm terrified of the dark, so shut the closet door and languish,
suffocating
in mechanical grief.
the carpet is too stained for.
anything, we're too stained for anything.
stop.
stutttttter.
sto-stut.
stutter.
quick, take that star and paint my bedroom walls with it, i want to see. see. i want to see.
don't fall in love, it spirals and turns circles in itself until
birds feed on your stomach and ffff-f-alling (lord it's falling)
and eventually you will buy paper leaves and shred them
in anxiety, so your house will look l
+
hands touched
fingers laced
ribbons tied
zippers zipped
mouths closed
eyelid to eyelid
cheek to cheek
my yes [and then] your no
-
a lie for a lie
heart in two halves
the latch of your suitcase
your hand on the doorknob
tires on the street
quiet and quiet
and i'm all alone
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lanquish in never enough time
people barter with god evevery day
you see, god marveled at coexistence
we no longer speak of it
we spend our years just reading from our lines
looking at our bounderies, staying in check
staying in routine, staying healthy, staying alive
we no longer coexist, we are unexistent
we might as well be extinct, but our minds
are resilliant as fuck you know, we'll paster anywhere, lightning and thunder don't scare us because we got the devil under our feet, fe- fe- feet!
i string this musicality
this brainedness
with lightning bolts
and thunder
because i know
these will be sounds i will never hear again
when i am dead, i know, no m
yeah. i haven't been on much at all over the past week, and now i want to officially take a break. through a complicated series of events, my mother has found out quite a bit about me she hadn't before, so my computer access is limited anyway, among other things.
so yes, these few days have been interesting. i might create a new account when i come back. maybe.
:heart:
so i went to my grandparents' for a few days, and came back to a hundred and fifty some odd messages.
most of them are deviations.
i'm going to read them, i swear. >.
I love you. Just thought id let you know you'll be making verbal babies with me and if you ever want to do a collab im more than willing [: youre fabulous and i crave your words on my irisis daily <3 sophie [: